LIFE IS NOT A SNAPSHOT!
And hold on cause there’s good for those who love God
Life is not a snapshot
It might take a little time but you’ll see the bigger picture.
Josh Wilson, Before the morning
A brief explanation to why I posted the lines in the lyrics of
this song I love.
Life is not a snapshot. There are moments in life when you
feel, if anyone took a snapshot of what I'm going through
right now, it would look really awful! Really.
I can't really complain. What I "suffered" today was not
persecution, torture, famine, a terminal disease or any of
the serious afflictions a Christian may face. My tribulation
was more annoying than anything else. But it was a real test
(and stretch) on my patience muscles.
And only God knows how to stretch those, to the point where
we're just ABOUT TO suffer a mental breakdown including a
serious fit of rage in public... God took me to the very
limit of that... and then let go before I really made a
fool of myself.
We're halfway through our dream vacation in Uruguay, a
really amazing country not far from Argentina. We were
invited by my mum and dad-in law, who rented a house for
the summer. On the day we were leaving, my son had diarrhea.
We got some meds to stop it (our trip was more than one day
long, so we basically had no choice) and gave them
to him. Too effective: three days later, no poop.
First night at a hotel on the way, uneventful. Second day,
we arrive at our destination, son with very high fever.
We call travel assistance, they give us an address. We had
to wait quite a bit, but everything basically ran smoothly.
Thing is, four days and Ibuprofen-three-times-a-day later,
our son still had fever, had cold symptoms, and his eyes
looked irritated.
Another travel assistance call. Hospital crammed with
people (11 children before mine) and only two pediatricians
available. Two hours later, a doctor sees little Samuel.
That part was really wonderful. A great professional.
She ordered a couple of tests, we went to the nurse room
and then to the lab, and at the lab we were told we needed an
authorization for the tests.
Back to reception. Many people waiting. Receptionist calls
travel assistance and gets the "Why-are-they-ordering-this-
throat-test-if-the-patient-came-to-the-hospital-with-diarrhea?"
response...
Doctor had to be called and write a complete report on what
she saw at her office. Then that report had to be faxed to
travel assistance so they would fax the authorization
(unbelievable, in times of scanners and email, some businesses
in the Third World still use faxes. I thought they were
totally obsolete!). The receptionist says, Please sit down
and wait. Ok.
Carina waits for at least forty minutes and then stands up
and asks, What about my authorization? And gets the
"Sorry-I-faxed-it-but-then-the-faxing-failed-so-I-had-to-
fax-it-again-I'm-waiting-for-their-answer-now
-so-you'll-need-to-wait-some-more" response.
Imagine being told to wait after waiting four full hours.
Spending four hours of your precious and SHORT vacation
in a hospital waiting room, knowing full well your child
has NOTHING serious and you could just as easily have
waited it out having fun somewhere. If my inlaws hadn't
insisted and my husband hadn't agreed (he's much more
obsessive about Sami's health than me; I take a more
relaxed and wait and see approach), there's no way we
would have wasted an entire afternoon there.
Believe me, it's an absolute miracle I didn't lash out
at the unfortunate lady right then. And to me it's an
almost sure proof that I've really been born again
because, believe me, the OLD Carina would have screamed
her guts out...
And again, going back to the snapshot metaphor...
This is the kind of thing I would have hated to
experience before. I still hate it...
But my reactions have changed. I've been changed.
Self-control was not in my vocabulary before. It is now.
And in spite of being internally upset and wanting to
relieve my annoyance by screaming, I didn't.
I didn't insult the receptionist (or anyone else for that
matter).
I didn't insult my husband. Ok, I confess I used a couple
of expletives regarding the situation. But knowing my
fleshly self, it could have been so much worse.
And all along I remembered the “All things work together for
good to those who love God” verse, which greatly
encouraged me.
Because I thought, Hey this little annoyance is conforming
me to the image of Christ, and thus increasing the weight
of glory in me.
How awesome is that?
So should I complain about losing one day of vacation when
lots of Christians are losing their lives over their faith?
No way! But oh, it’s annoying… Yep, but we need to see the
bigger picture. Or if we can’t, trust that this awfully
nerve-wracking experience we’re going through somehow
fits into the Plan.
I need more patience, so God gives me those patience-stretching
experiences. I hope I’ll get some time to rest those
muscles a bit after today!
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